I knit. Um, a lot. I also watch Doctor Who, well, about the same amount (I’ve a very hard time sitting and doing NOTHING; I like having my hands busy). So when I was looking for dishcloths and found this, well, I knew I had to make it. (That’s a Dalek, by the way, the oldest and biggest baddies in the Whoniverse.) Which led me to this pattern, which, while pretty cool, led me to musing “I could do better than that…” And so I did.

I said I knit, not practice photography
Some people thought it was pretty cool — even unblocked and with my truly atrocious iPhone photography — and asked me to write up the pattern. And so I did that, too.
I present to you:
The Most Awesomest TARDIS Dishcloth EVAR pattern
Gauge: c’mon, it’s a dishcloth. Use a worsted/8-ply/y’know, medium-ish cotton yarn and a reasonably sized needle for that yarn and you’ll be fine. Like I’m going to swatch for a dishcloth!
CO 38 (I use a variation of a long tail cast on, but whatever works for you — not too tight is better, but, um, it’s a dishcloth. The Doctor won’t hate you for having a tight bottom.) (Oi, stop snickering!)
Row 1, 3, 5: (K1 P1) 19 times
Row 2, 4: (P1 K1) 19 times
Row 6: (P1 K1) twice, P30, (P1 K1) twice
Row 7: (K1 P1) twice, K30, (K1 P1) twice
Row 8: (P1 K1) twice, P4, K22, P4, (P1 K1) twice
Row 9: (K1 P1) twice, K4, P22, K4, (K1 P1) twice
Row 10: (P1 K1) twice, P30, (P1 K1) twice
Row 11: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P18, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Row 12, 14, 16: (P1 K1) twice P8, K2, (P4, K2) twice, P8, (P1 K1) twice
Rows 13, 15: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P4, K4, P2, K4, P4, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Row 17: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P18, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Row 18: (P1 K1) twice, P8, K14, P8, (P1 K1) twice
Rows 19, 21, 23: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P4, K4, P2, K4, P4, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Rows 20, 22: (P1 K1) twice, P8, K2, (P4, K2) twice, P8, (P1 K1) twice
Row 24: (P1 K1) twice, P8, K14, P8, (P1 K1) twice
Row 25: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P18, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Rows 26, 28, 30: (P1 K1) twice, P8, K2, (P4, K2) twice, P8, (P1 K1) twice
Rows 27, 29: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P4, K4, (P2, K1) twice, P4, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Row 31: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P18, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Row 32: (P1 K1) twice, P8, K14, P8, (P1 K1) twice
Row 33: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P4, *K2, wrap yarn around needle twice, K2*, P2, rep from * to *, P4, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Rows 34: (P1 K1) twice, P8, (K2, P2, unwrap and slip wrapped yarn [with working yarn in front], P2) twice, K2, P8, (P1 K1) twice
Row 35: (K1 P1) twice, K6, (P6, sl st wyib) twice, P6, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Row 36: (P1 K1) twice, P8, (K2, P2, sl st wyif, P2) twice, K2, P8, (P1 K1) twice
Row 37: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P4, *K2, sl st wyib, K2*, P2, rep from * to *, P4, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Row 38: (P1 K1) twice, P8, K16 (including 2 previously slipped stitches), P8, (P1 K1) twice
Row 39: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P6, P2tog, P4, P2tog, P6, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Row 40: (P1 K1) twice, P30, (P1 K1) twice
Row 41: (K1 P1) twice, K5, P20, K5, (K1 P1) twice
Row 42: (P1 K1) twice, P5, K20, P5, (P1 K1) twice
Row 43: (K1 P1) twice, K6, P18, K6, (K1 P1) twice
Row 44: (P1 K1) twice, P7, K16, P7, (P1 K1) twice
Row 45: (K1 P1) twice, K9, P12, K9, (K1 P1) twice
Rows 46, 48, 50: (P1 K1) twice, P30, (P1 K1) twice
Rows 47, 49: (K1 P1) twice, K14, P2, K14, (K1 P1) twice
Row 51: (K1 P1) twice, K30, (K1 P1) twice
Rows 52, 54, 56: (P1 K1) 19 times
Rows 53, 55: (K1 P1) 19 times
Bind off, weave in ends, and off you go through time and space!

For those of you who do better with charts:

Tomorrow (or… soon!) I return to kyriarchy blame with at least one of the following posts: A new Naked Pictures of Faceless People on rape culture; Part 2 of How to Pick an Anti-Kyriarchy Preschool; a rant on “D’y'ever have to massage, y’know, gross people?”; or whatever else catches my fancy and/or ire at a time I actually have the chance to write about it.
Reflections on trolls, the bias against emotionalism, and a new way to harass, I mean, communicate with me
Some of the feedback to A really bad day has been… interesting. About what I’d expected, really, but sometimes it’s not that fun to be right. Most of the comments were supportive, some of you really got it, there was a troll who called me middle-class and sheltered (and also a monster, but that was part of hir “I’m-so-clever” trolly shtick), and I got accused of begging for absolution with flowery language.
Was the post a reasoned assessment of the severity of what happened? Was it an objective reflection on the potential damage of that level of physicality with one’s child? No. And it wasn’t supposed to be. It accurately reflected (with its “flowery language”) the emotional state I was in at the time. It fascinates me — perversely, granted — that some people’s response to an emotional outpouring whose intensity they think is disproportionate is not to respond to the emotional content, but to belittle it, and the person expressing it. We (over)value “objectivity”, and hold emotional expressions — especially those we deem “disproportionate” — in contempt.
I could probably do a 1000 word treatise on why, but, frankly, I’m not in the mood. And you all know who-what I’d blame, anyway.1
What I wanted from that post, far from absolution (which I don’t believe anyone else can give me), was two-fold: one, help, which — having asked for — I received, before it was even posted; and two, to be seen, acknowledged, and not rejected. (Which, it occurs to me, is what our children so often are asking for. “Mama, do you love me?” indeed.) It’s what most of the Naked Pictures of Faceless People authors are asking for. It is, I would argue, what most personal bloggers are seeking. When we are seen, naked and raw and we think so very ugly, and are accepted anyway? Not forgiven, not unforgiven, simply seen, and not turned away from: it’s one of the most profound transformitory experiences possible.
One which doesn’t require that our nakedness be as ugly as we think it is. And in fact, rarely proves to be so.
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It also amuses me when trolls think they’re saying something new and shocking and horrifying when they ridicule me. As sixyearitch said on Twitter: “No one can hate on me like me. Fools game. Plus I do it better.” Or, to quote the Doctor2 speaking to a version of himself3: “There’s no one in the universe who hates me as much as you.”
Hate me for abusing my child? Disgusted with me for equating what I did with “real” child abuse? Think my writing is self-indulgent navel-gazing? Been there, thought that. Frankly, it’s kinda old. The day a troll says something I haven’t heard from myself before is the day I quit blogging because I’ve achieved perfect silence from the crazy voice and won’t need this outlet anymore.
Not that any of this will stop the trolls. Only silence will, and I’ve no plan to shut up any time soon.4
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In other news, I acquired a post office box, which means Raising My Boychick has an official public mailing address!
Arwyn Arising5
Raising My Boychick
PO Box 80241
Portland OR 97280
USA
Send me anything except chocolate6 or death threats7. Or toenail clippings8. Or junk mail9. Or, y’know, anything illegal10
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Consider this the kitchen sink post: anything you want to say or ask or comment on or get off your chest or share11 that you haven’t had a chance to in the regular-irregular posts? Say it now! Or forever hold your — well, actually, or say it later. Or, hey, send me a real paper letter! Your choice.12
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