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Intermission

Life is: growing plans ever bigger, scrambling to keep up commitments already extant, deadlines long since missed and still looming ahead, inspiration abounding, dubious coping skills on the sly, perspective shifts vertiginous and plentiful, and never enough time when everything wants done now.

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Life is: a hand clutching a hand, a ring digging into flesh and [...]

NPFP Guest Post: Who helps the helper?

Welcome to RMB’s Naked Pictures of Faceless People, a series of guest posts from diverse anonymous bloggers. (Read more about NPFP’s origins.) These are the posts that are jumping to get out of us, but for whatever reason — safety, embarrassment, conflict of interest, protection of loved ones’ reputations or feelings, or so on [...]

A study in endurance and ableism

November 24

I am sitting in a chair, a sturdy folding table before me. My hands are clenched; my eyes are fixed on them but do not really see. I feel every systole and diastole of my heart, and it feels like it is trying to move five gallons of blood this hour, not just five [...]

I never went back: on psychiatric ignorance of breastfeeding

I wrote this piece (cross-posted) for Melodie at Breastfeeding Moms Unite! She’s running a series on mental health and breastfeeding, and asked several bloggers for stories on their experiences with the mental health field while nursing. While I haven’t had any contact with mental health practitioners in the 2.5 years the Boychick has been breastfed, [...]

Why I say I’m OK

I am a very out person about my mood disorder. I wrote about it and talked about it in all my college applications and interviews; I mention it to everyone I know whenever relevant (and it often is); it’s in my bio here and on most social networking sites. I am an advocate for openness, [...]

Why I didn’t celebrate “World Mental Health Day”

When I heard Friday night that Saturday October 10 was World Mental Health Day, I was excited: another day like Celebrate Bisexuality Day, but for us crazy folk?? Sign me up! When I Googled it, however, this is what I found:

World Health Organization:

Mental, neurological and behavioural disorders are common in all countries around the world, [...]

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I was just beating my head against a wall.

Odds are, what just flashed through your head when you read that was not an actual cranium impacting on a physical wall, because “beating one’s head against a wall” is a metaphor used so often it’s become cliche. It means to try to do the impossible, usually [...]

No more words

It may not exactly be a bad thing, considering a few days ago they wouldn’t shut the bleep up, and I was composing more posts than I could keep up with, composing posts while going about my day, composing posts while trying to parent my child, composing posts in the middle of praying — begging [...]

A letter to a loved one

I know this is going to be hard to hear. Because you are hurting. Because the crazy voices in your head (and they are of you, yes, and you are you-with-them, but they are not you) are so loud, so much louder than my quiet voice. Forgive me if I yell sometimes. I’m only trying [...]

One foot, alone

I don’t have very good balance. I sprained my ankles a lot as a kid, and now (consequence? cause?) I cannot stand well or long on one foot without falling over. I do just fine with both feet under me, or trading feet rapidly when walking or running. I’m not constantly falling over. But ask [...]

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